Pentagram

The Meaning of a Pentagram:

The Pentagram is a symbol of a star encased in a circle. Always with 5 points (one pointing upward), each has its own meaning. The upward point of the star is representative of the spirit. The other four points all represent an element; earth, air, fire, and water. All these things contibutite to life and are a part of each of us. All the elements and the spirit are within the circle to symbolise that everything is connected. Also to show that everything occurs in a cycle, from begining to end and then again. The pictured pentagram above has an opening in the cirlce. This is almost never seen but I thought the picture was beauitful so I used it here. To wear a pentagram necklace or other form of jewerly, is to say you feel the connection with the elements and respect the earth.

THE STAR OF DAVID

Has six sides....

more to come.

all this love

the goddess in me is continuing to give him love freely.
"i can't leave it's too late."
i hope the god in him does the same.

i'm not gon' lie, it seems as tho he's throwing himself on the mercy of the courts lol and it makes me very uneasy. but i think that's because i've never been here before. and i've never known what to do.

he's also still throwing shade. but that could be actual work he's doing. but who can trust him!? NOT ME!

elixir is a great album. i mean lotus flow3r and mplsound is also, but this one connects with me deeper because its from a woman's perspective. and its teaching me how to love.

i learned my place as a sacred wombman the other day. a healer lover and completing element.
i think i'ma suck it up and get a room. and see what we can work out.

Despair is in the Air

I can't lie. Today I am broken. Actually I broke yesterday...
but today. I can't....
I can't pick myself.
Quiet storm.



Yesterday I found out that he was cheating, and has been lying to me about it for the last three years. Probably. "Ooh love I'm a fool to believe in you, 'cause I don't know...no I don't know anymore..."

I am releasing my self.
I just wish that someone would've told me. (But she did and I didn't believe her)

It hurts. Because I know this is what I get. This untruthfulness began with me. Or maybe it didn't. But, I can't blame the balance. I can't blame anything. These tears are to be tasted. These years were not spent wasted. But now I've gotta go.

I've been misreading the universe, thinking that I'm not supposed to be here... but I am.
I let a man trick me into believe I was inferior. Isn't that sad? That what he said about me was right. That I could not be saved without him. That he's supposed to be helping me. Helping me hurt? Stay in the back, don't say nothing... be my rib. I can't DO that anymore. It's KILLING me.

The funny thing is I can't even find him! LMAO. Stupid girl to believe he'd at LEAST be honest... let alone call me.




Moving on SUCKS. Especially when so much of my life revolves around him, my spirit grows out of our connection. I can see the lesson plain as day now and I wonder why it took this to get me here. But I don't wonder 'cause I know.